Week from hell! First the annulment papers, then the lawn mower, NOW our cat Jinx has a tumor. My sister Maggie took him to another vet out of town for a second opinion on his mouth. Turns out that he does indeed have a tumor in his mouth.  

First things first, I will not allow an annulment to take place without writing an impact statement and outlining my entire relationship with my ex husband. I hope the tribunal reads truth into my statement. 

BECAUSE OUR MARRIAGE WAS VALIDATED IN THE EYES OF GOD AND CHURCH!

We will schedule Jinx for his tumor removal surgery next week provided the funds are available this short of notice. I pray we get the money in soon. This should help stop him from peeing all over in the house too.

Have no idea where the $675 for the new motor for the riding lawn mower will come from. That one is a harder one. 

We still need a bed for David's van too, always something to be done and then things break, it feels like a never ending cycle of bad luck.

I was zoned out big time today because I had to deal with the church issue and it terrified me, so instead of taking a half of anxiety pill, I took a whole one! Not a good idea, but I just can't handle the stress Scott keeps bringing into my life. Who treats the mother of your children this way? What does this say about his character? 

He should have warned me these papers were coming instead of sucker punching me with them. Most especially since I asked him to his face last year to please never do this and he promised he would not. Well, so much for promises. The Scott I once knew who loved and cherished his family no longer exists. 

I tried to make peace with him but that didn't work. When he found out I was contesting the annulment he stopped talking to me again, like he was punishing me for not going along with his idea. So we could only be friends on his terms OR he was buttering me up so I would not contest the annulment proceedings. Either way, it felt like another kick in the stomach from him. I am done with that. 

He needs to learn he can't jerk me around the way his wife jerks him around. In a way I feel very sorry for him because they rushed into a marriage thinking he could fix all the problems they caused at a later more convenient date, well, seems that kind of backfired. 

I am very sorry to my children, but for my own sanity I must move forward and he can't be part of me and David's lives. But I promise my kids we will be civil when HE is around and not do or say anything that will cause bad feelings. David and I still very much care how you are all feeling and will behave accordingly.

We love you kids VERY much!