This morning me and Maggie had to run some errands in town. We headed over to Wally World to find Maggie a new bra. But before we could go into the store I spotted my ex husbands vehicle. We turned the car around and left the parking lot. There is no way I can run into him with the emotions I have going on right now.

We ended up at ShopKo instead. She found a very nice 'oh la la' kind of bra and then we were off to get some lunch at Subway before she went to work. I love my sister, she is so kind to me and has really been there for me to lean on. 

Life is hard enough but when you live it trying to do what you believe is right, it is so much harder. Very few people stand up for what they truly believe in and when they do, they most often do it alone. It can get pretty tough out there. Most especially when the people you trust the most, turn on you. 

I am not going to lie, I am struggling in life right now. Everything is so hard. Financially, physically, emotionally. I am trying real hard not to be a drama queen about it and hiding a lot of how I'm really feeling inside, but some days I just lose it and cry. 

Giving up is not an option so I hope the people who love me hang in there with me. Things will get resolved and worked out. I will be in a much better state of mind one day soon I hope. I feel so bad that my husband, sister and kids all have to see me going through these times. It makes me look weak I am sure.

I started my letter to the Tribune, I wrote five full length pages so far. There is so much to cover, but I need to make 100% clear to them that the marriage I entered into with Scott was very valid and noting less than that. I want to give a good foundation into our lives before, during and after our marriage and divorce. Everything will come out.  

I also contacted people who will write support documents to attest to our marriage being valid. I am going into this very prepared because I believe so deeply a wrong has been done by him asking the church to consider if we were valid or not. This is so insulting to me and probably to our children. 

I pray the truth will be on my side and the rightful decision rendered! If not, Rome is how to go with my appeal.

I need to get back to work. I hope my husband is feeling better, he had to drive appointments today not feeling well. The kittens are good today after their shots yesterday.

The sun is shining and I want this to be a better than yesterday. I am being more positive and happy today. 

I miss and love all my kids, but take great pride and joy knowing they are out their being productive in their own lives and happy too.

LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH!