The more I learn about annulment in the Catholic Church, the more I understand that it is not merely paperwork and money as my ex husband tried to convince me it was all about.

Maybe he convinced himself that it's just about paperwork and money, but I know the truth of what it really means. Annulment states our marriage never took place in the eyes of Church and God, pretty plain and simple. He twisted the truth and thought I was stupid enough to go along with it? 

What I would really like to know is why HE thinks our marriage should be annulled to begin with? That is one question I would love him to answer for me.

At least my family know I made an honest attempt to make peace with Scott. He on the other hand only had one agenda in mind  and when I wouldn't agree to that agenda he stopped talking to me. Don't take a rocket scientist to understand why!

I've been struggling with this since I received those papers from my ex husband. I have examined my conscience inside and out concerning this matter. I've even considered not fighting this and just letting him have his way so we could have peace in our lives.

If I did that, I would be  giving in to something that I believe very strongly and I am afraid I would regret it for the rest of my life. Even if kids were not involved, I would still proceed the way I am because it is the right thing to do.

So unless he goes into this process lying, I have to trust the Tribunal will make the right decision concerning the validity of our marriage in the Catholic Church and in the eyes of God.