My allergies are in full swing. I was running a low grade fever a few days ago so it very well could be a cold, but not likely. I don't have time for a cold or allergies for that matter. I have things to do and all I really feel like doing right this minute is sleeping. I'm so tired. 

I finished up and sent out the documents for the annulment papers yesterday. I'm still in a state of shock Scott went against his word and filed this petition regardless, but then his word means very little these days.

It is my mother's birthday today and I am not sure how I feel about that after the recent events of her 'nasty gram' to me. I hope the person/s who brought to her attention my hurt over her not coming to my wedding live a long life of guilt and remorse for playing the lead role in destroying things between me and mom. This was a very manipulative and vindictive thing to do to the both of us. This person has a very black heart if they can live with what they did and not be sorry or feel any remorse.

I have a very good idea who did this, although the persons responsible will never admit the truth so there is no reason to pursue this any further. This will be an X on their judgement day so I guess I will have to accept that as enough.

I spent the afternoon watching and listening to abortion aftermath video's. I have a lot to say about abortion so I am going to be talking about this 'taboo" subject in more depth soon. 

The most interesting thing I learned from watching all the video sessions today were the women that would say, it was 'my choice'  or 'my decision'.  I didn't find any evidence where the woman didn't have a choice and was forced into having an abortion.

I find this interesting because there has to be women out there that had no choice and were forced into having an abortion. I find it a bit off that no one came forward and claimed this? But, this is a very taboo topic and I am sure I just have to dig a little deeper to find these women.

Want more shock, aside from abortion? Did you know there are actually places called 'dying rooms" ? I'm pretty shocked about this too. I watched an hour long documentary part 1, of what these rooms are all about. They have an impact on counties whose government is concerned about over crowding population that they believe could potentially lead to insufficient food source.  I may be very naive about this because for one, I just recently learned that this exists, two, I come from a country with lots of freedoms and things like this don't exist, at least not that I know of. 

Grim topics of conversation I know, but true ones, shocking ones and maybe it's time people started talking about these things and educating themselves. 

I wish I had the means available to go to one of these countries and take all those innocent throw away children and bring them here to find homes. It is sickening to me that in this day and age human babies are dying. 

Some cultures devalue females and those are most likely the children you find in orphanages. I actually found both male and female but to be honest, the females were abundant. 

The dying rooms, those are where they put children and allow them to die. No food, water or any other means to sustain life. I saw this for myself, it was horrible! I think we allow animals to die with more dignity!  Something needs to be done.

I will continue learning as much as possible because I find all of this very interesting.

Now it is late and my husband is home from a long day, I think he needs a little female attention, a Hugg people, get your minds out of the gutter!

I bid you all a good night!