It's three in the morning and I can't sleep. I have so many thoughts going through my head right now. It feels like I am planning a funeral for my Mooch. I just love this cat so much. He has been in this home for seventeen years.

David called me last night and said something that stuck in my head all night and it made perfect sense. I just need to convince my heart.

He told me Mooch has always been a strong cat, he ran this neighborhood, protected his territory, chased deer, fox and other animals out of the yard over the years. Our bully boy he was. David went on to say Mooch is not the kind of cat that wants to be sickly, it is not his make up. It is why he has been trying to get outside for the last several months. :(

My heart is in a real bad place right now because I feel so torn, on one hand I know David is right about Mooch, but on the other hand my heart does not want to let him go, its so final. He is my Boo Boo kitty..

He has watched the kids grow up and other cats come and go in this home. He spent many years with Scott around, I have to wonder if Mooch wonders where he went too. So many people love this cat and he always came to them looking for some loving.

Mooch is an amazing cat and this is an extremely difficult decision I have ahead of me. I will do what is right for him. I am so THANKFUL for my sister being here to help me with this. I would be more of a train wreck right now if she were not here.

I will update when there is news.  Please keep my kitty in your thoughts and prayers that he exits this world painlessly and in peace.