David has not been feeling well lately, but this week he has felt much worse.  He is complaining of tingling in his hands and feet, along with heart fluttering.  He is not sleeping well either, having a lot of nightmares.  I think he is really super stressed right now.  He is so behind since moving back to the old office, losing his part of the building and a close relationship are taking a toll on the man!

Nothing with the remodeling is even close to being done yet.  We can't run the business with one desk, no carpeting, no file cabinets, nothing functional in that office and no money to fix anything because we put all of our money into the building,  the one sitting empty but with a lot of our construction work and materials!
 
I know one thing for sure,  David did not deserve what happened concerning that building and he sure does not deserve the problems it is still causing his business today.  But as long as a one person is happy she got her way on EVERYTHING,  I guess that's all that matters! 

I probably shouldn't be so bitter still because it's over, building is gone.  But there was far more than just a building at stake here, far more, and that is what the real hard part of getting over it is all about.  I am not angry with my ex husband anymore.  I do feel a little sorry for him because I don't think he fully understands what is happening with the rest of this family where he is concerned. 

I can't help but wish we never had that Duck show, had I known that event would trigger the beginning of the end for so many things this family held dear, I would have cancelled the fucking show! 

Hindsight hey!