I hate today and its barely started!!  I've been attacked by my own dog, had to clean dried cat pee, the Internet was shut off for insufficient payment that some how was made wrong when we had the cable tv shut off yesterday.  I am dog tired from little sleep and cannot take a nap today because I need to be up and off to watch Austin tomorrow very early. 

David fixed the Internet problem and I muzzled my dog so I could finish doing my cleaning.  Speaking of cleaning, me and Maggie have decided to start a cleaning service. Well, more of a "maid' service because we don't want to get into commercial cleaning. 

I have been researching for months on 'green' cleaning methods and plan to offer this because it's the new hot demand. Both traditional and green to be exact.  I have been compiling all the information I can on cleaning products, forms, insurance etc.  We are having trouble coming up with a name though. I want a catchy and professional sounding and that is not as easy as it sounds.

My son comes home for the weekend!  I missed him and it is only been three days, how am I going to feel after five days a week gone.   I am so upset with his father, I feel he is the reason my son had to leave town to find work.  He should have followed though on his commitment to this family and finished that coffee house side.  That knife is going to be a hard one to pull out of our backs for a long long time to come!

Will I ever get over this?? I can't see that far right now and life's short so it's not looking good. It seriously took a toll on our business.

It's raining out today but I got most of my house work done this morning with the help of my sister :) She is so helpful with everything.  Her boss Andy called a few days ago and told David (husband) how much she is a good worker and she is coming along just fine, he also said if there was anything he could ever do for any of us in our family to just ask. THAT was an awesome thing for him to say.  I think we are officially part of the Crispy family now.  People caring like that is special and you just don't see that too often. 

KNOCK WOOD! my asthma is behaving for the most part. The nebulizer machine the hospital made me get is working, it cut down on my E.R. visits drastically.  They were growing concerned that I was in there every three months like clock work. I was also lectured that at my age asthma can be fatal. :(((  Just what I needed to hear.  I have no insurance and cannot afford the better medications and now that the printer dickhead screwed my husband and stole our biggest account,  getting insurance is not going to happen any time soon.  

Life is so hard right now but it seems to have drawn me and my husband and sister closer together. We are all working toward the same things, keeping our home.  If we lose our home you may as well bury me in the backyard. This home holds ALL my greatest family memories, 26 years worth.  I would be devastated to lose it. I have seven animals here that would have no place to go!

It is the only house mom Rosa has ever been in and long after she is gone this is the only place we will feel her presence.  I lost my baby here,  all my tree's planted in memory of loved family members no longer with us.  This makes me cry just typing this out.  

BUT, life is what it is and if we can't save it we cant.  I wont see my husband get sick working so hard to save things.  If it ends up we have to let it go then we do. Sigh.....  

Well this blog is taking a nose dive hey?  So with that said,  I am going to get back to working on our cleaning business plan.  All you loyal cyber followers say a little prayer for us, it would be greatly appreciated. 

Love and huggs.....