I should have done this a long time ago.........................  


I remember the day we went into the jewelers to buy our wedding rings. Young, naive and in love. Life has this way of choosing how things like that all turn out regardless of what we plan.  I can say one thing for sure, without our families behind us backing us and supporting us at such a young age, we were on the road to ending before we really ever got started. 

The best thing that came out of those years were my beautiful and wonderful children. I will never regret having them because they are the true joys of my life and the good that came out of those early years together.  

Regrets? the things that tore apart my first marriage were things out of my control.  It was what it was and at one time, we were very happy or so I thought we were. I think my ex husband has made reference that it was not like that for him.

 Hard times take a toll and if your really meant to be together you face them together and get though them together.  It just didn't work that way for us.  My exes family were less than thrilled we were getting married and I am sure my parents were not overly excited about this either.  The hard times drove us apart and without family backing us and giving us support we really didn't stand much of a chance. 

So today starts the road to recovery, yes, I said recover.  It has been years since my divorce, but at that time; I was silly enough to think a divorce didn't phase me in the least bit because we got along still and remained close in each others lives.  Now its different and I am learning to get along without him in my life at all. (not by our choice in the beginning) but by my choice now and I say that because he turned into someone I don't even know anymore.  He lost his sense of family where we are concerned or he just didn't have the courage to stand up to people, or he is just scared of going back to be lonely.  What ever the case may be,  he left us!

Now for me it's letting go time and moving forward, that means closing the door to my past. The fat lady must have sang when I wasn't listening.  I'm paying attention now and you sure don't have to tell me twice it's a done deal. 

I love my husband David very much and look forward to all we can share together and with the added bonus of his lovely family who have ALWAYS supported us from the first day we met.

We are going though some of the hardest times of our lives right now and I learned that it has only pulled us closer together. We may lose things in our lives and may never make anymore money than what pays the bills, BUT, we have the kind of love no money in the world could buy and that alone makes me richer than most.  I can live with that.....  

I'm good, we're all good