Today my youngest daughter left for her orientation at the University.  I don't know how she feels, but I feel very stressed.  Thank God her aunt Maggie is there with her to help her though this long and confusing day. 

The reason I feel so unsettled is because her housing is not fixed yet, her financial aid is not finished, we have not decided on her car issues, bring it or leave it.  There are so many loose ends.  I feel like I am letting her go out to fall on her face where some of this stuff is concerned.  

Times like this I could just smack her father! The absent one. It must be nice to go on living life and not having a care in the world where your own kids are concerned because he's too busy taking care of someone else kid.  I am not sure HOW he does this but he does and it is not fair to his daughter or any of his own kids.

I am the parent worrying about if they are eating or sleeping well, if they have enough money for their bills, gas in their cars. I worry about so much and maybe this is "mom territory" but just because our kids grow older does not mean they don't need our help from time to time. THIS is the job of a parent and it is a lifetime job, there is really no cut off date.

Sometimes people just have a real hard time doing the RIGHT thing for themselves and their children. It takes a lot of courage to stand up and do that.  If you have to hide the fact you are helping your kids then you have more serious issues going on.

This is going to be a long day but I am going to try and make it a more positive one.  I still have to keep reminding myself it will take time to get my head into that zone.  I am a work in progress that's for sure.

We may have our first cleaning client lined up. Maggie and I have to go over the numbers still.  The insurance 'should' be done at some point today, everything else is set to go.  I was pretty skeptical on starting this type service but we seem to have interested people before we have officially made any mention of this publicly.  We shall see......

I need to get to work now and keep my mind off the sad and negative..

I Love You, Baby Girl, Good Luck today!!!